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| eek!! |
| 04.30.04 (3:58 am) [edit] |
| Extroverted (E) 81.82% Introverted (I) 18.18%
Imaginative (N) 59.46% Realistic (S) 40.54%
Emotional (F) 60% Intellectual (T) 40%
Easygoing (P) 62.5% Organized (J) 37.5%
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| being enthusatic.. |
| 04.30.04 (3:19 am) [edit] |
It's so hard to be enthuastic for someone.
Kara, one of my friends just got a job and I tried so hard to be excited for her and even though I was really excited for her inside, I just couldn't show it. I'm just sad tonight and it's affecting all aspects of my life.
I'm not very talkative to the people around me or on msn, I don't know why. I come back with one or two word answers.
I guess I should tell you why I'm sad...
It all started off when I got home from work around 5 30...My sister started demanding things right away. (Computer was messin' up) and I'd just arrived home, so was a little pissy. She proceeded to scream at me and complain to Mum. I tried to calm her down but then she just noticed the shoes I was wearing... (kylies shoes but she gave them to hayley). They're pretty comfortable and easy to put on so I just put 'em on and went to work. She kept picking on me, for no reason. I tried talking to Mum bout stuff but she kept interrupting...
I had a headache all day, was at work and this morning..ohhh! I got woken up extra extra early by SS (stupid sister)... Got in the shower only to have SS banging on the door for the whole time I was in there, know what she wanted? To brush her teeth. I got out the shower, and out of the bathroom...with a towel...was dripping wet and then she goes crazy and screams that the floor isn't dry enough for her to brush her teeth.. I decide to just go to my bedroom and get changed while she was still screaming and trying to complain to Mum. Bedroom door opened, in the middle of me getting changed (it was locked, damnit)...and I had a towel thrown at me (not mine)..and I was like 'wtf?'..then SS goes "Thats the towl I dried the floor with'..Ohhh, I was SO pissed off that she'd disrupted my morning...Then I had to deal with traffic all the way to work...
Work was good though.
Ok, getting back to it...My other sister was being really sarcastic and bitchy bout my usage of the internet...looking at me in this disdainful way...I just thought 'fuck this, I don't want to be here' so i left...and drove around for ages... Went to Windsor, Lliando (however you spell it), Mt Druitt, Rooty Hill, Woodcroft...got petrol and just basically drove around...
Got home and told everyone not to talk to me, they're acting like they didn't do anything wrong.
And to top it all off, it's Dad's birthday and it's happy families time with the cake as I write this..so I guess I better join them and keep up the pretension that I'm part of this 'happy family'.....
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| frustrated.. |
| 04.29.04 (6:40 am) [edit] |
I was pretty pissed off....when I read a conversation between M and P.
M is a friend of mine and P is the dude she likes.
I'm just sayin' what I would say to P...
As I'm sure you'd agree, M is an amazing person. In the short time I've known her, I've grown to care about her. I don't think that she deserves to be treated like this. The way I look at it, you're putting her on hold until her hearing improves. What sort of friendship/relationship is that? A friendship is based on mutual respect and understanding. I know that you feel that she's the closest friend you've got but it just doesn't seem that way. All this time, I've been hearing about you....I've thought to myself "hmm, he sounds like a nice guy, he'll treat M right" and when I found out what you said to her, I just got so pissed off. Waiting for her to get her implant before pursuing anything? She'll be the same person before and after the implant. I don't know what you expect to change? Maybe she'll understand you better, sure but..how does that change anything? You like her for her NOW so what's gonna change after? You'd like her more? Just because she got more hearing? Tell me, where the hell is the logic in that? Fucking narrow-minded people. I know that I haven't known M long but she's such a sweetie and through all our chats, I've grown to respect her. I feel for her when she's sad, happy, excited or depressed. She's that sort of person that just draws you in. I can always feel when she's not in the best mood and her, me. I find it so easy to talk to her, I'm sure you agree. So, I'm thinking to myself...where the hell is the logic in 'it's so much easier to talk over MSN'..'it became obvious that we didn't fully understand each other'... Isn't building understanding a part of forming friendship. The best friendships I've ever seen, they had their own way of understanding each other. Quite frankly, I just feel that you don't quite understand. You expect HER to change for YOU. Why don't YOU change a little too? Reach a compromise. And by the by- Girls do talk to other Girls.
Aaah, feels better to get it out...It's a little messy but...My mind is muddled afterall.
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| today... |
| 04.28.04 (4:19 am) [edit] |
Went to a meeting at TAFE, bummed around and talked about the event we're hosting for the students we're working with, in June. It's gonna have fairy floss, popcorn, maybe a jumping castle, drug and alcohol information cause that's the main view of the project umm and yeah other stuff. We're also gonna have police and ambos there! Hopefully it'll be a greeeaaat day!! :)
Came home and Rach came over, we worked on our application forms for the Deaflympics and then we went to Castle Towers for me to get my passport photo done, eeuggh is all I've got to say, lol. On the way home, I was acting like a retard. Screaming and hitting my head, got some weird looks. Go Team Kat! :)
We picked up my sister from school and I embarrassed her so much that she lied down on the seat covering her head with Rach's jumper. I continued to hit my head and scream even though she begged me not to because there were heaps of students milling around but, me being the nice big sister I am..I did it anyway!
While at the traffic lights, I continued doing it then stopped and looked out my window to find a carful of Lebanese people looking at me weirdly and saying stuff, they'd just stopped to watch me..How special do I feel?! :) Then I turned to look at Rach and they drove off.. Heh heh heh.. We then came home and did our thing and went to the post office to post some stuff off to Melbourne.
Came home to find Maz waiting- did some stuff and tried to work out how my damn computer worked. It's fucked up, seriously!!
Bleeh, watched my share of tv, blogged a little, chatted in tBLURT...now chatting to a couple of people on messenger.
Yep, it's been a good day.
Tomorrow probably won't.
Bleeh, I'll keep you loyal readers updated :)
Don't forget to vote for speshy! :)
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| stripysox |
| 04.28.04 (3:49 am) [edit] |
I'm already singing this girl's praises. She linked me! :)
You can check her out at http://stripysox.tblog.com
I wasn't too sure if she was a dude or a girl at first because stripysox could belong to anyone but as I read on, I discovered that her name was Kel. :)
She's posted a couple of songs. Her best friend is her mother. She has a boyfriend which I'm assuming is named Geoff. He keeps videoing her :P...She cooked dinner for him.
Her ex committed suicide and she seems to feel guilty about that in some way because she wished that she'd talked to him after they broke up but they didn't talk.
I'm not sure how old she is but she seems to be fairly young, being still at school and all that. Old enough to cook? :P But young enough to get detentions.
I think this blog is simple, has a little of teenage angst, and just sadness even though she's happy. I'm not sure if I'm reading between the lines right.
I'm not sure... :) That's all from me now :)...Next is....uhhh, someone else :P
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| Raggedtigeruk |
| 04.28.04 (3:40 am) [edit] |
Raggedtigeruk can be found at http://raggedtigeruk.tblog.co... I only skimmed through his blog and had a look at the..interesting pictures.
He has this deep appreciation of 'sex on legs' :) I didn't read much but hmm, he seems to be a charmer to get the girls to label themselves with his nickname. I'm only assuming here but to see girls willing to bare themselves...that says it all.
As a chick, I wouldn't like reading RaggedTigerUk but if you're a dude with overactive hormones, I suggest you click the link. Lots of booty to be seen. Or if you were gay- you'd also like it. Something for everyone. There's also funny pictures but not much writing to be read.
Oh well...:).. only thing I haven't seen out of the whole 'typical dude' thing..is cars. There's women, music sex and ummm, immature pics :) I didn't see sport or beer though, hahaha.
I'm sure heaps of other people would like reading/looking at it though, just not me :)
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| stolen from lauren's blog |
| 04.27.04 (6:22 am) [edit] |
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| FireAngel |
| 04.27.04 (12:34 am) [edit] |
Okay! FireAngel.
What do I know about her?
She's a 24 year old chinese woman that can be quite deep at times. She has a fear of death. She's gotten out of a break-up, doesn't sound like a good one and he just recently turned her world upside down by sending her a text. (Firey- I am NOT referring to your blog as I type- just typing what I remember) :)
She likes karaoke! :) When she's down, she sings "fucking angry songs" :) From what I've seen, she puts quotes at every beginning of a post and ends with 'Leave your mark'.
I've enjoyed reading her blog immensely. She writes really well. You can read it at http://fireangel.tblog.com :)...
I look forward to reading any other posts she may make.
She also whores herself out on tBLURT, actually...correction: She whores her blog out :P Hahaha..
Tune back for some other reviews.
-FireAngel- any good? :)
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| To my loyal readers... |
| 04.27.04 (12:15 am) [edit] |
Please my beloved loyal readers...VOTE FOR ME in Featured Blogs. That's right, it's baaaack! :)
http://www.tblog.com/featured-blogs.php?vote=speshy" title="http://www.tblog.com/featured-blogs.php?vote=speshy" target="_blank"http://www.tblog.com/featured...
I've taken the liberty of pasting a link on here so it's quick and easy! :) Vote for me, yay! :)
Love you all always :)
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| Plainclothes21 |
| 04.26.04 (3:46 am) [edit] |
I asked people on tBLURT as to what I should write about.
Plainclothes21: Write about me and my blog.
So I thought I would.
PC21 is a fellow Aussie although not too sure where in Aus he's located. He seems to be kinda young but not too stupid :) He whores himself out on tBLURT to get more traffic to his blog which is at http://plainclothes21.tblog.c... and to his joint blog with fatalfame which is at http://plainfame.tblog.com or can be access at PC's blog under the link- "Drink Me".
As far as I know, his name's Alex. He's 16 and from Australia. He puts in regular appearances in tBLURT so I'm sure you can catch him there. He also has a little competition going on at his blog. Called the fishbowl or something. (Yes plain- I do read your blog)...
That's all from me....for now..about PC :)
Anyone else want me to write about them? :)
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| Funeral blues.. |
| 04.26.04 (3:36 am) [edit] |
I really like this for some reason...I saw this at tafe on the wall and memorised the author and title.
[i]Funeral Blues
by W. H. Auden
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.[/i]
What do you guys think of this poem?
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| some photos from maz's 21st |
| 04.24.04 (9:17 am) [edit] |
Hey all
Here's some pics from last night.
Maz's 21st.
There are HEAPS more! And I have to get some off Amanda then will show you some more, maybe.
But here you are...for now :)
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Anto, Nicole, Felix, Amanda and Michelle.
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Group of us girls :)
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Kat (me) and the Birthday Girl- Maz!
ENJOY! :)
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| Free Tbucks |
| 04.24.04 (8:33 am) [edit] |
I have decided to give every person that is a member of tBLOG 500 tbucks for every comment they make on my blog. If you link me on your blog, you'll receive 2000 tbucks.
I do this for two reasons.
1. It's shameless advertising- I want more traffic and am willing to resort to bribery! :) Comments are also desired!
2. I have way too many tbucks. Wayyy too many. Would like to get rid of them :)
So, I thank you for your cooperation. Please feel free to message me or comment on my blog- more ideas as of what to write about... are definetely welcome :)
Hugs and kisses :)
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| old friends... |
| 04.24.04 (7:45 am) [edit] |
I just got home from a old friend's house.
Saw four chicks I went to school with...
It was...I don't know, really really good to see them but I didn't know how to act around them.
It's been ages, two years maybe?
I can't even describe how good it was to see them.
I was a little quiet and shy but I wasn't bored. It was interesting to watch what they were like now. They haven't changed....much...
I wish I could have been less shy, might have been a little better....
I really hope I get to see them again soon.
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| last night.. |
| 04.24.04 (1:51 am) [edit] |
I'm fairly sure that a good time was had by all that went last night.
My darling friend turned 21 2 weeks ago but she had her party last night.
I basically got plastered.
I wish I could find the words to describe last night but I can't. I just know I had the most excellent time.
One of the major things that made it so good, was that there was no bitchiness. Everyone just had fun and talked to everyone although there were four people that sat at their table unmoving scowling at everyone.
I did a speech and I'm not sure if I messed it up but people said I did good. I think I succeeded in embarrassing Maz!!! She also liked my present! Woohoo!
(got her a silver photo frame with an enlarged pic of her and me as well as a shell necklace)..
I didn't hang out with any specific people last night, I just went from people to more people!
There was a cakefight and unfortunately, I got caught in it!!! :)
*sighs* yep, a good time!!!
Went out to Macca's afterwards with some people...
I'll post some pics later on...
Hugs and kisses..
Kat
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| ...:o)... |
| 04.21.04 (3:43 am) [edit] |
I don't know why I haven't updated.
I've had the opportunity to, sure but I just didn't.
I don't know why... Hmmm, today's...Wednesday!
I can't remember what I did on the weekend!
I know I spent time with Rach on....Saturday, I think. But what we did..escapes me... :)
Rach, help? :)
Monday- went for my driving test and got my P's! (Provisionals)...Woohoo! Drove over 200km on Monday..was on a high! Visited Nana... Went to Rach's then to a shopping centre bout 45 mins away then back to hers then visited Maz..came home, dropped Dad and one of his mates off to darts and took my sister to her friend's.
Tuesday- Went to TAFE for a meeting. Goddamn, am soooo frustrated. There is eight of us..only three turned up for the meeting and of course...the jobs got assigned to the 3 of us..due next Wednesday. Do not need this..bleh, took my sister to the dentist...car died on the way home..arrghhhh.... Rach came over in the afternoon...and we tried to work on stuff but we couldn't concentrate..well, I couldn't... Took my car to the auto-electrican but on the way..it died for real..so had to get a tow truck...:)... seems to be okay now......I hope..dropped my sister/her friend at another of her friend's..and picked them up close to midnight at Castle Hill...eek!
Today- slept til 12....worked on stuff with Rach..I think it should be okay, we'll see tomorrow though... Took my sister and her friend to the station. Have to pick them up in a bit.
I have no idea what else to write.
My head's throbbing, I'm yawning and...sighing. :)
I have yet to get another present for Maz. Rach's got her present already, I've gotten one and no I'm not telling you cause Maz reads this blog. I want something else to give her but I'm not sure. I've also been searching for a top to go with the skirt but..meh. I got a nice orange jumper thingy today, it looks halfdecent with the skirt so..maybe..maybe, just maybe. I'm a bit worried about it being too hot...We'll see how the weather is.
I've also decided what I'm going to do for the speech Maz's asked me to make! I don't think it's too embarrassing altho I'd love it to be BUT her parents, sisters and brother as well as grandparents etc etc will all be there...including other little kids. I hardly think the blowjob story is appropriate.
The blowjob story, you ask? :)
At Maz's 18th- she decided to demonstrate the lesser experienced ones..i.e.- me as well as some others, how to do a blowjob properly. She got this West Coast bottle and showed us how to put the condom on and procceded to suck the bottle off. Maz has made me promise that if I ever told the story, I had to make clear the fact that she was drunk! :)
Three years on, it'd be an awesome story to tell, with all the demos :) But unfortunately, too many little kids!:)
I'm going to enjoy myself on Friday night.
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| From Rach's blog... |
| 04.16.04 (4:08 am) [edit] |
[b]Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says[/b]. "Mohammed and Massumeh have invested in a business in the ratio of 5:3. If the" (BLEH, a maths text book..NOT MINE!)
[b]Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.[/b] What do you touch first? Air?
[b]What is the last thing you watched on TV? [/b] "The L Word" on Wed night.
[b]WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.[/b] 9:00ish?
[b]Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?[/b] 8:59pm
[b]With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? [/b] NOTHING! :)
[b]When did you last step outside? What were you doing? [/b] When I went outside to get something from my car...yeah, got something out of my car..
[b]Before you came to this website, what did you look at? [/b] Someone else's blog.
[b]What are you wearing? [/b] Dark jeans, orange t-shirt and red shoes..
[b]Did you dream last night?[/b] No, I didn't..Was too tired.
[b]When did you last laugh?[/b] Today, did heaps of it :)
[b]What is on the walls of the room you are in?[/b] A noticeboard, maybe more :) Shelves with photos, folders... (am in cpu room)... lime/yellow paint? :)
[b]Seen anything weird lately?[/b] Is this a joke? :P
[b]What do you think of this quiz?[/b] Haven't really thought about it
[b]What is the last film you saw?[/b] Uhh umm, uhhh... Pirates of the Caribeean
[b]If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?[/b] A round-the-world trip.
[b]Tell me something about you that I don't know[/b]. Uh, I don't know. A lot, I suppose but you could always ask me :)
[b]If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?[/b]
Ummmm, all the arrogrant people could suddenly disappear? :) Dumbshits too :)
[b]Do you like to dance?[/b] Yes, secretly! :)
[b]George Bush: is he a power-crazy nut case or someone who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?[/b] Whatever...like meh..he's a fuck anyway :)
[b]Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? [/b] I don't know, haven't thought about it.
[b]Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? [/b] As above.
[b]Would you ever consider living abroad?[/b] Yes
[b]Will you pass on this survey?[/b] I'll put it in my blog
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| thanking ceeceesun |
| 04.16.04 (3:52 am) [edit] |
Thank you Ceeceesun for making my header.
CCS made it a while ago but haven't had an opportunity to use it til now- I decided to change the layout.
Does it look okay?
(CHECK OUT CEECEESUN'S BLOG!)
The link is in my links column thing... :)
Toodles sweeties :)
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| being hit in the head with a mop |
| 04.16.04 (3:49 am) [edit] |
Have you ever had a smelly, wet and dripping mop shoved in your face?
I have, as of five minutes ago! It's not a nice feeling. I'm worried whether things from the floor got caught in my hair or if I smell!
Oh well, lets sum up the past week...When did I last post? *checks*
Monday! I'm sorry faithful readers. I'll try to make this post extra long to last you the weekend! :)
I was thinking about doing the whole Tuesday- bla bla...then I decided not to...but then I decided to! :P HA HA HA! Sucked in dudes! :)
Tuesday- Worked, not much else. It was Maz's Birthday! YAY! :) Had lunch with her and went shopping, bought a skirt for her 21st...
Wednesday- Went to Luna Park with this group of people...and Rach... It was okay..nothing worth writing home about :) But..Rach..*laughs* There was this barrel thing..you have to get through it....She got through the first part with no trouble at all but then...HA HA HA, she fell over several times trying to get out, she ended up crawling outside... Lucky Rach, she had an audience! :) People were hangin around laughing at her... :) I got through with NO trouble at all! :) I have never seen Rach THAT clumsy! :P
Even though we didn't do much, it really made me tired.... :(...Didn't go to sleep til late kinda...
Thursday- went to the shop and got Kushiels Avatar. The dude said that I was the first person in Australia to get it! Woohoo!... Ordered a copy for Rach..went into work and worked for a bit... Went shopping with Maz and she found a nice skirt for her 21st...We both have skirts, no tops...It's so damn difficult finding the..RIGHT top to go with the skirt..BLEH..had dinner which was crrraaaappp.... went to Burwood RSL for NSWAD (New South Wales Assocation of the Deaf)'s AGM ...was boring but quick...
They had a guest speaker...Carol-lee...she..was awesome!! :) Her presentation had such an impact on us...I can't even put it in words...Inspiring would be one but...I can't explain....augh, It was awesome..and brought on a lot of...comments...it was..really good... She really made me think..
There was one thing she said that I thought was so...I don't know..but she said "I don't consider myself to be disabled. The barriers I encounter in life disable me"...It was just..wow.. :) Her presentation was also funny, heartwarming and just..wow :)
I planned to post last night after getting home but I was just exhausted and I just wanted to sleep. Even though thoughts were running through my head. It took a while to go to sleep :)
Today, I just worked..not much... I also got a call from the place I wanted a job at... I basically don't have enough experience but she still wants me involved in the organisation so I guess that's a good thing. I'm not sure. She also wants me to present at a conference in August. I've already said 'yeah maybe'. but I'm not really sure. She wants me to speak about lack of youth access and how we get brushed aside by people that think they know best...
Oh well, Right now I'm just ignoring Hayley (little sister)..she's screaming and going crazy..She's already bashed me a few times and accused me of stealing her mobile fone but I'm really surprising myself..I'm just fully ignoring her although about half a hour ago- I hit her cause she hit me and pulled my hair. My hair is a no-no...definetely!
Oh well..she's a fuckwit.
For those that don't know, Hayley is my youngest sister. She's 12 as of last month. She has severe ADD. (Attention Defienct (whatever) Disorder). She grabs any opportunity to go crazy and bash up people..over minor stuff. Like today, we had pizza and we got Pepsi...she's not allowed to drink pepsi or coke but they delivered Pepsi..so she went crazy...one night of pepsi isn't gonna hurt, is it? But anyway, thats when she hit me on the head with the mop. She also punched Dad in the face. I get so frustrated because why does she think she can get away with it? I don't know but her damn psychologist told my parents to try to NOT trigger her temper, to leave her be. But c'mon, she's getting way out of control.
I hate psychologists.
No offence Lauren....
I hear screaming.. (YES, I AM DEAF! :P but I have a little hearing, not much though)....She's giving her lungs a workout... *goes to check*
She's banging stuff in her bedroom, trying to get people to come see, she loves the attention..But oh well, Dad and I are ignoring her. Maybe she'll calm down although I don't think she will til tomorrow afternoon..(when she goes to her friend's cause dad's goin out)
Kylie comes back tomorrow!!! :) She's been in Hobart for the past week! :) Mum also comes back this weekend, altho on Sunday. She's been away at uni. She's an external student, doing her degree by correspondence..
Tomorrow, a few of us are going shopping for Maz's 21st birthday present. We all have NO idea what we can get her but we're going to have a look.
Maz- YOU'RE NOT COMING! :P
Hmm, there's not much else to report....
Later....(for now :P)
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| hmm.. |
| 04.12.04 (4:37 am) [edit] |
Here's what I wrote last night...I think I mentioned it..It's basically rubbish but I was incredibly tired!
"Trust is very highly regarded in some places. Some people would bet their lives just cause they have faith. I’ve always found that amazing. I’ve always been amazed at people that have so much faith, in themselves as well as in everyone else. It really makes me think, do they not know about all the crime and the deceit out there? Are they blind? Or do they choose not to see it because they believe so much in the faith. The mind boggles. I have a problem with trust, faith and that sort of thing. I’m the first in line to admit that. But who can blame me? Everytime I turn around, there’s deceit of some kind. Backstabbing, lying, betrayal…you name it… Why did they have to be invented? So much heartache and pain have stemmed from all sorts of betrayal. People shrug it off and say ‘Don’t take it too personally, they do it to everyone’ but how can you not take it personally if they lied to your face? I’m not pinpointing any specific events here but I was thinking about lying and betrayal earlier while I looked around at the people I was around. Every single one of them have been involved in some sort of betrayal. I’m not saying that I’m completely innocent. I’ve fabricated some…lies in my time but I believe I learnt the hard way. I try to avoid dishonesty now..I dnt know what im saying..I’m jst rambling. I’m sitting on my bed in a singlet and boxer shorts, the only light is coming from this laptop…I’m writing this in a word document because I feel like it, I’m not sure about putting it on my blog just yet because it brings back too many memories . there are people that read my blog that iv hurt in such a bad way that I feel ashamed to be who I am sometimes even though I’m happy with the person I am right now. I could fix some things, sure…but I’m happy…I’ve probably hurt everyone I’ve encountered but it’s made me a better person, I think because iv learnt from my mistakes. And I’m going wayyy off track as usual. I don’t remember the point of this. I opened Word and just started writing, I’ve just recently stopped and read the whole thing. I’m pathetic. I wish I could be a little better with words, so I could express myself better.
I’m not religious so as much as I’d like to think that Jesus died for our sins, he didn’t. There are people going around ‘sinning’ so his death would have been pointless. People are evil, there’s no maybe about it. I’m evil, you’re evil and everyone is.
My eyes are crying out in pain. My heart, in its deep lair is stirring. My head is throbbing. I think it may be bed-time.
I love you all dearly, even if I don’t show it enough.
*hugs and kisses*"
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| heh heh....another joins |
| 04.12.04 (12:54 am) [edit] |
Heh heh... Maz joined tBLOG at my persuasion..
katrina.. says:
you need a blog
the big 2 1 tmw says:
y
katrina.. says:
cause it'd be cool
katrina.. says:
rach, len, kara, caffy, me...have one...
katrina.. says:
and justin too..
the big 2 1 tmw says:
yeh??
katrina.. says:
yup..
the big 2 1 tmw says:
alrite i dont see y not
Heh heh heh...So....who's next!!!!!!!
VISIT Maz at maz04.tblog.com or optionally click the side panel for easy access under "Maz's Blog"...make her feel welcome! Thank you people!
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| :) the feeling of satisfication |
| 04.12.04 (12:10 am) [edit] |
The feeling of satisification is awesome...
I'm halfway through cleaning, I've done the shopping, the dinner's bubbling away in the wok, the dogs are fed and my clothes are on the line..
Awaiting Dad and sister to come home to eat dinner...
What on earth has happened to Kat? :)
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| ...heh heh heh.. |
| 04.11.04 (8:07 pm) [edit] |
Happy Belated Easter everybody!!!
Hope you had a good Sunday.
I did- Bec and I went to the deaf soccer thingy...We didn't fare too badly on the way there but the way back was a DIFFERENT story but lets wait for that..:)
The dude I tried to avoid on Friday, well..I had a little chat with him yesterday...Basic 'small talk'...heh heh..
Basically just chatted a little to everyone... Chris, a old school mate was there, was really good to see him. It was a little mini-school-reunion with only bout 5 of us there but still good enough for me...
Hmm, not much worth mentioning...
But like, on the way back..I was feeling pretty confident that I could get on Parramatta Rd and go home the way Rach did... So..we drove back near the hotel and we're driving at a little above required speed and got some weird looks from people..we just shrugged it off cause the road was in sight...we were driving along and ...*giggles* we discovered that it was a no-through road...screeched to a shop and did a u-turn and were receipents of funny looks..AGAIN! We went to the next road and finally got on the road and then I got kinda confused..so..we got lost and after a while, we discovered that we'd done two rounds of the same roads... We had to take the map out :| :roll: :roll: I know, I'm so intelligent!!! NOT!!! There were heaps of laughing so..was good :)
Today, I'm being a bludgy-ass again!
Woke up arond 12pm... and I'm still in pj's and I really should have a shower soon and get changed... I wrote some stuff last night on my laptop while sitting on my bed, it's a bunch of gibberish...but that's what I'm known for...right? If I can get it onto this computer, I'll post it! :)
Toodles..
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| I like karaoke |
| 04.10.04 (12:01 am) [edit] |
Hiya...it's been a while..
Hope everyone's been well.
I have.. :)
Had work on Thursday and it was really good cause I got to actually teach, even though I'm the support teacher. The teacher was a little headachey... I felt that I didn't do too shabbily! :) Went to a meeting and got a little hyped up!!! Rach and I then went to One World Sport, she went in to find someone to give him a couple of books while I waited patiently outside...and somehow I ended up inside, sitting nervously for a while til I got used to the whole...thing and didn't worry so much about being tapped on the shoulder and asked for i.d! :) heh heh...Rach and I signed along to karaoke and attracted a bit of attention...There was this one specific strange guy that kept swinging on his chair..*faces us, faces other way, faces us* and so on. It was a little weird!
Yesterday- went to this soccer thingy..dressed fairly weirdly... denim skirt, singlet and a black skirt as a top...lol....a hat, sunnies...and ribbons! and... a rainbow scarf tied around my waist!!! old dude socks with my...strange shoes... Rach wore..denim skirt, black top..ribbons, heaps of 'em... knee high rainbow socks with black boots..we were a sight, trust me!! lol.. Rach's mum even took a photo before we left!
The soccer was really awesome.. For a while, at the start...everytime we caught sight of a specific dude we knew..we pointed out how lovely the little ugly hill was, a little immature i know but we didn't really wanna do the whole 'hi, how are you' awkward thing...well, I didn't... but anyway, it was awesome cause I got to catch up with everyone I hadn't seen for...AGES! We(Rach, Amanda G and I) went back to the hotel with Sherrie and Andy, checked out their room..not too shabby!! :)....
HEaded over to the rowing club and...lol, we were daring each other to do the most idiotic things...
Amanda G: *taps a dude on the shoulder* "Hi, I have a friend called Frank".
Dude: Oh...okay...from Melbourne?
A: I don't know.
(rach then strikes up a convo and asks his name which turned out to be john
--------half a hour later--------
A: *gets the attention of the dude next to john* "Hi, have you met my friend John?"
Other Dude: "yeah, we've been friends for ages"
A: Thats good cause I don't know him..
We just basically cracked up. Wasn't the most mature thing but it got us laughing...Heaps of other stuff too...I think someone actually convinced John that I was from New York and...he asked me if I knew ASL and I was all like, yeah...and spelled out 'hello' in ASL...heh heh heh
Today- I'm just being a bludgy-ass and just relaxing..
There's soccer again tomorrow, but I'm not sure about going. I'd like to see everyone again, for sure but I'll probably see them at Maz's 21st anyway. *sighs* I'll see how I feel, I suppose. I mean, if I didn't go- I could get a lot of things done..My 'holidays' turn out to be 'not holidays'..BAH! Am busy pretty much everyday of these holidays...Oh well, I don't know why I'm complaining!! Being busy's good!!!
Toodles sweeties!
I have to feed the dogs..*groan*
MWAH! :)
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| Recent pics... |
| 04.04.04 (6:18 am) [edit] |
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Maz and I at Live n Local.
According to Rach, it's an okay pic but we're smiling SO fake! :)
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Kylie(sister), Maz, I, Nicole (fellow YA) and her friend Natalie, 3 fans and the band "28 Days" at LnL.
Lookin' pathetic..YAY!
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| hiya hiya! |
| 04.04.04 (6:12 am) [edit] |
Updating....
Friday- went to tafe and then.. went shopping with Carol and had a massage from this Asian dude at the shopping centre. It was awesome!!!! I loved it!! I didn't love seeing my flab shake though when he was..doing the arm thing! Kinda hard to explain!!! Ordered Kushiel's Avatar...I get to pick it up in TEN days! YAY! I cannot wait. Went to Carol's place..had a glass of wine and looked around her place (haven't been there before) then she dropped me home and I showed her my room/house/family. She insulted me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a painting in my bedroom that I did last year with Rach and Kara. It's of...grass, a pot of gold and a rainbow... WAIT...*checks* I have a pic of it...*posts*
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I proudly claimed that I did the painting and the little three people were Rach, Kara and I.... She asked when I did it and I went 'last year :roll: " and..she was like... :shock: Did you copy that from a 7 yr old's drawing!!! INSULTING!! Hahaha, I like my painting!! That's all.
Shortly after she left, the police rocked up and they repeatedly asked me if I was sure I didn't do it myself...they agreed that it was indeed a mystery...didn't bust me for illegal driving so that was good.. :) Ummm, I don't even think it came up in conversation.... I was a little worried about our rep...the police car being outside :) But...I don't think..many people noticed :)
Saturday- volunteered at "Auslan Only BBQ" with Cert 2 Auslan students. Was a team member then went home and showered cause my feet were dirty from the picnic.. Eugh *shudders* went out with Rach- just cruised around and relaxed. Chatted heaps, hadn't seen her for about 19 days. Thought it would be awkward cause we usually see each other..like..all the time!
Sunday- Just bludged- didn't wake up til bout 12:30pm. (Had a late night). Worked on a couple of assignments (am working on one now). I've also been chatting to some people and just...bleeh, not much at all.
And tomorrow- I have tafe....
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| Saturday Ponders :P (thanks ceecee) |
| 04.02.04 (1:21 pm) [edit] |
[b]Describe your...[/b]
Wallet: It's red, with all the necessary card slots and coin thingy although I have to get a new one.
Hairbrush: it's green
Toothbrush: Purplish/pinkish/whitish :)
Coffee cup: I don't drink coffee!
Sunglasses: I'm atcually one of very ver few people(that i know) that don't own sunnies :)
What you are wearing now: A white t-shirt, boxers..and all the normal underwear :)... yes, just got out of bed..
Hair: It's growing, I guess. It's not quite shoulder length yet but..getting there..
[b]Do you... [/b]
like candles? yes and no
believe in soul mates? Um, as much as I'd like to..I don't think I do...
believe in love at first sight? Ah, I don't know bout this one either...
[b]And...[/b]
What do you want done with your body when you die: Cremated but if theres any...parts of me that people need, they're welcome to it...
How many songs do you have on your computer? None!
Look out your window...tell me what you see: Clothes on the line, the back patio kinda thing, grass..yes, my backyard :)
What is the longest you've ever stayed up? 3 days...
What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day? RAINY!
Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: happy :)
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| not happy jan... |
| 04.01.04 (1:15 am) [edit] |
I'm not feeling my best at the moment...
When I was at work, I got a sms from Mum saying "What happened to your car? When did it happen and where?" I was really confused so I sent a message back saying "My car? Happened?" She came back with 'It's been damaged, stratches and the drivers mirror's broken"...I was thinking 'She's gotta be joking, today being April Fools and all" but unfortunately she wasn't.
I got home to find my car moved and in a different position from where I left it this morning after dropping Kylie off. The mirror smashed...the doors locked...a big ugly bunch of marks.. After theorising and talking to the neighbours for a while...we discovered that the marks/mirror came from one of our brick thingies.. hard to explain...holds up the umm...carport... pedestals? I don't know.. and there was stuff on the ground from the car...
Asked the neighbours and one saw a red car with a chick in it around 11am and a white car with 2 chicks in it around 2 30pm... parked outside our house...
One of the neighbours also think that...they got in somehow..put it in netural, and tried to push it up the driveway....and it...hit the brick thing and they left it and ran...
I'm so...confused...a month ago, next door and their next door had an attempted break-in..and before that, the house next to it..too...so our right hand neighbours are probably next... This used to never happen..Maybe someone has a hidden agenda..I don't know.. The police are gonna be here in bout 2 hours time..cause..we gotta wait for Kylie to come back from netball training so she can interpret...
Anyone got any theories?
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